Lesson in trusting God

     Once again, my wedding song is playing, this time on my Spotify Liked list - which is currently up to 3,066 songs.  Once again?  Yes.  This has been happening once a day or every few days for just over a year now - ever since Steve told me he was leaving and that our 11 year marriage was over.    

     The first time I heard it, the pain was intense and I sobbed and turned off the radio.  The second time I also sobbed, but let it play.  Same with the third time, fourth time, fifth time, etc.  It was tempting not to listen to music at all, but music is like reading and writing to me.  It's as essential as breathing.   

    It became such a notable pattern that I started to ask God why the song kept playing, because I know that He uses music to speak to me, and the repetition had to be Him trying to get my attention.  Obviously it worked.

     First He revealed that this song (God of Wonders by Third Day)  had been in my heart before Steve, and would be there long after.  Second, a few months later, He revealed that He was giving me this song to reclaim myself and my heart.  Today He revealed that it is my love song to Him. 

God of Wonders by Third Day

Lord of all creation
Lord of water, earth and sky
The heavens are your Tabernacle
Glory to the Lord on high
And God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe declares Your majesty
You are holy, holy
Lord of heaven and earth
Lord of heaven and earth
So early in the morning
I will celebrate the light
As I stumble in the darkness
I will call your name by night
God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe declares Your majesty
You are holy, holy
Lord of heaven and earth
Lord of heaven and earth
Lord of heaven and earth
Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah! To the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah! To the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah! To the Lord of heaven and earth
The God of wonders beyond our galaxy (You)
You are holy, holy
Precious Lord, reveal Your heart to me
Father, holy, holy (Lord God Almighty)
The universe declares Your majesty (You are holy)
You are holy (yes you are), holy (holy You are)
Holy (Jesus saves), holy
Hallelujah! To the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah! To the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah! To the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah! To the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah! To the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah! To the Lord of heaven and earth

https://open.spotify.com/track/0TkFpOjGJCjmXJyDHC56Sh?si=57fdcd009a294a3e

     Tonight I a so very thankful that He keeps pursuing me until I listen, and teaching me until I learn.   Tonight I am thankful for a Savior who loves me so very much that He continues to help me grow into the person He created me to be, no matter how painful itis in the moment.  It is always for my eventual good and His glory, like he taught me through this song.

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